"Don't hate all the roses because you were scratched by one thorn"

These past few days in my various conversations with people I have come to realize how often we focus on the past. I read a great quote the other day, it says “ You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present". We can't be so focused on things that happened in the past so much that it affects the way we act towards the future. It is going to be scary and new but that is the adventure of it. You can't live in a constant fear that you'll be hurt or that something won't turn out right. Don't hold back because opportunity won't always be there for you when your ready. Take that leap. As for myself I am taking my own leap of faith. One I am re-applying to the nursing program once more but at the same time applying for a study abroad program to Russia next spring. So the rest of you, just do it! 

A Work in Progress

This week I have learned a couple important lessons and I realized that these are things that could be shared with others. I refuse to admit that I am conforming to this so called blog thing since I like to see myself as a non-conformer. However, I would like to look at it as online journalism. I used to be a fantastic journal writer and have since epically failed. The title of this post is not only relevant to the fact that I am still trying to figure out how a blog works but to myself. I am a work in progress. This week has only gone to prove that and in my attempt to better myself I hope to maybe share a piece of myself with others that many don't get to see. A friend of mine (Ryan Joyner) haha once told me that sometimes people don't see this part of me. The vulnerable part. I hope to change that a bit.
Before I go into the events of this week I should give you a bit of a background. For the past year I have been working towards getting into the nursing program. I applied once last year and didn't get in. I was discouraged but once more set out to work even harder. I recently applied again and that is where this week comes in. On Tuesday I went to pick up my notification letter to see if I got accepted this second time around. As I opened the letter to see the words "we regret to inform you"...my heart shattered. I couldn't believe that once more I wasn't smart enough or good enough to get in. I couldn't comprehend why this would happen again when I know that the Lord wants me to do nursing. I started arguing with the Lord in my head (piece of advice: don't EVER do that). I felt like my life was in limbo, there isn't really a direction I am headed and I felt lost. Something that has come from this week is the realization that EVERYTHING is in the Lord's timing. He will bless me when the time is right. For now, I just work even harder.
ON A FUNNY NOTE:
This same day I decided that it was going to be a no facebook week (didn't work out) because it was going to be a busy hectic week. I made my roommate change my password for me but there was the problem of facebook still being on my phone. Me, being the brilliant technician I am decided that I would just reset my settings so that facebook would make me re-log in but since I didn't know my new password I wouldn't be tempted by it. Upon doing so, I soon realized that it reset my whole phone and deleted everything! 261 contacts GONE. It turns out not only could I not go on facebook but I couldn't even text. Needless to say, it has been a really productive week haha. So I apologize if anyone calls or texts and I ask "who is this?"
Anyway sorry this is such a long post. Hopefully they won't all be this way but I felt like someone out there needed to read what I had to say.